Thursday, May 10, 2007
hmmm
not blogging for a few days le.. jus reformated my com.. cant upload pics.. and feeling kinda lazy to update.. feeling confuse.. and cant find wat i wan. simply too many things to say.. but dunno how to start..
some random saying.. typing randomly.. it would sound like some parable.. pls pardon me!
Meixiu told me tat the ans is already in my heart.. come on point to me where is it!!!!
have been wondering wat am i thinking.. here are my thoughts...
Person A : I feel so far away from you... maybe we are jus 有缘无分.. during tis period of time.. we have fun.. and it have been really great knowing you. i love ur accompany.. thanks for everything... but truly both of us know tat tis relationship wont bring us anywhere further then tis.. wat are we really looking for? sometimes it jus hurt my heart to have pretend nothing happen. I am not good in acting.. but u make me a good actress... wat should i do jus to be a "good girl" in ur eyes? i am tired... really..
how should i think.. when u tell me things about other girls? like wat u except me to answer you? be generous? and i still need to face you everyday.. how am i going to do it..
Person B : hmm.. jus want to say "I'm sorry" not able to do as i promised to.. thanks for being there for me.. even ur little sms like "morning" have really make my day.. we jus are frens..
Person C : Coming back to me at tis time, not a good choice ba... wat's the use of making tis relationship works.. both of us have once tried so hard.. yet failed.. wat makes you thinks tat we can make it tis time.. i dun have faith in both of us.. not in tis relationship. Once you have hurt me the most.. to the extend tat i dun dare to walk into a proper relationship...
Person D : You are the one.. i always wanted.. waiting for u.. and now finally come to past. Knowing now is not the best time yet.. and will keep on waiting.. yet.. still trying and figuring out my thoughts...
going back to draw lots again... who will be the next one...
not a replacement anymore.. not a 第三者..
not as simple as u think i am..
Posted by Jane at 11:06 PM